On a different note, I've been reminded about why I haven't dated much and why "casual dating" just wouldn't work well for me. An oldies song put it well, "When I give my heart, it will be completely, or I'll never give my heart." Some people can date and keep their heads on straight. I went on a date once "with no strings attached" and it took me more than a year to recover. It's more of a statement about the way my heart works. I know I need to grow stronger in discernment and self control. I also know I need to keep holding out for a higher standard, because I too easily convince myself that the standard is lower. Most importantly this has reminded me that I keep looking for love in other sources when I need to find it in my Lord and Savior, the spring of Living Water.
This is also a theological journey. Where the rubber meets the road. I believe that if God has a husband for me, that person is special, one of a kind, and a better fit for me than the guys I have seen. Therefore I'll trust God, and wait, and lean on His wisdom. Also, if I truly believe that He is my portion I will not allow my heart to wander so quickly and seek to attach itself so easily.
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